New Years Resolutions, 2k18

Happy New Year, Everyone!!! We are already on day three of 2018. It’s already been a blur.

When I think of New Years I think of resolutions. Obviously, the every day stress will follow me from 2017 and 2018. But resolutions are a great way to reflect on the downsides of the previous year and the high times of the previous year. I can’t control everything but I can control who I am and how I react to the uncontrollably. Each year I like to reflect and revaluate what I want to accomplish, regardless of what it is.

Basically, resolutions are great. They give us a sense of a fresh start and fresh starting points. Every goal has a starting point and various ending points. They can not always be defined in a year. Reflection helps give those resolutions a bigger purpose. Progress is what matters.

I have my obvious resolutions such as eat healthier, work out more, get more sleep (never gonna happen). But I have a lot more passionate ones that I put a lot more thought into.

Here they are.

Be a better mother. This is one that I don’t think will ever leave the list. I am confident when I say that I’m a great mom but I’m not sure I’ll ever be good enough for my kids. Each year I hope to give them just a little more patience and a lot more love than I did the year before. My goal is to raise compassionate, intelligent adults. I want them to be the good in the world but I also want them to know reality and discipline. It’s a lot of pressure from one year to the next.

Change the world. This is another one that I think will be on her for awhile. I, obviously, want to continue to be kind and compassionate. I want to always find a way to be a positive moment in every ones day. Each year I want to find a way to contribute a little more to making this world a better place. I am not naïve enough to think I can single handily change the whole planet but I do believe I can make a small difference in someone’s life which in turn could change their own outlook of the world.

Be a better person in general. I know that my body is a lot smaller than the size of my heart. All of my intentions are good and my selflessness is endless but I do struggle with becoming detached from people and basically going MIA. I have an undying need for space and to keep to myself. It sounds harmless, but I have some very important people who deserve to hear from me on almost an every day basis. I try each year to improve this and give the people I love what they deserve.

Be a good wife. I was just married in August 2017 so this is a fresh one to my list. I am taking being a wife very seriously, I’m very old school romantic so I except myself to tend to my husband a lot. Ironically, my husband expects nothing from me but always appreciates everything I do. That is just an added bonus and motivates me more to be everything for my husband.

Be true to myself. I have struggled with this one for a very long time but I do feel that I’m getting better. It’s not that I ever tried to be someone that I wasn’t but I often will sacrifice my own happiness and energy to make someone else happy. The older that I get, the more I value how I spend my time and invest my energy in. Life is too short to be anything but unhappy. With that being said, it makes me VERY happy to make other people happy. I’ll always be a giver but I am finding that it’s okay to give back to myself sometimes.

Be a writer. I remember writing a book report in the fourth grade about, The Black Stallion by Walter Farley. I was excited to read the book and I was excited to write about it. I remember taking time to really craft my openings so I knew who ever read this would want to read more. I turned it into my teacher and she was blow away at my use of words and how I wrote. That started it for me. I fell head over heels in love with writing. All through school and college I had teachers compliment my writing in some way. I loved every English class and always looked forward to them. At a very young age I started keeping notebooks with poems and songs written in them. I had notebooks with pages full of my writing. Whichever notebook I was currently writing in, always came with me. I’d have a burst of inspiration and I’d start writing no matter where I was. I never fully believed in myself though. I didn’t see it as something I could be successful at. And then one day I thought, “why not?” My dream is to write children’s book and eventually a few fiction novels. I hope to one day publish a book that keeps being read long after I am gone. To know my words could leave an impression on so many people for so many years to come gives me all of the feels. That is my dream. Will that goal be reached in 2018? Probably not but by the end of the year, I will have made PROGRESS. Each year it becomes more important to me.

I’m always so disappoint when I see people talk negatively about resolutions. Sometimes it takes people a few times of trying before they gather their strength to truly commit. Be support and kind to people. As the saying goes, fall down seven and stand up eight.

To all of my readers, I hope you find inspiration from me in some way from reading my post. It’s New Year. If you want a new you, go for it! Maybe you won’t crush your goals this year but you will be a little closer to crushing it.

XOXO